Relationship.
Well, it's awesome...and when I say awesome, that is really vague because awesome can mean so many different things, but just take it more as a word like "speechless" because there are so many words that could describe your relationship that you can't pick just one. I am in a relationship and it is amazing. Amazing because I see where I've come from and different circumstances and it is amazing that he was put in my life.
And he is infatuating. Maybe I'm still in this stage with Jose. He is studly inside and out. But I realize that I'm okay if I forever just feel infatuated with him. I could spend 24 hours a day with this guy and I'm pretty sure I would be fine. Well, he might annoy me eventually, but I just enjoy hanging out with him and getting to know the things he enjoys and how he works and just watch him in his elements. He definitely has sparked some of his interests in my own life: like healthy eating, physical activity and sports. Just the other day I carried a small conversation with him about sports and actually sounded like I knew what I was talking about. The reality...I did know what I was talking about and in some ways, I'm glad I could take something that is more of "his thing" and engage with him about it. I'm not someone to give up parts of myself, but I am willing to take interest in what others enjoy and I think it's a good thing.
But we can be independent. It seems weird that infatuation can work with independence. No doubt I would be happy with Jose by my side all the time, but I also like that we can be independent of one another - that he can do his thing and I can do mine and we both know it is good for us. And it is nice when people say they appreciate how we can spend time with other people and not be all over each other. I'm not going to lie, I could be all over him all the time...I just like him that much, but I'm glad I'm not that person and I'm glad it isn't hard to not be that person. Knowing who I am apart from Jose is a blessing because I'm confident in who I am and who I was made to be. Not to mention, it is amazing to have a man who also is steady and secure in who is and who he was made to be, which only makes me more infatuated with him as a person.
Then there is constant discovery. Dating is fun. You laugh. You do things you never really make yourself do on your own. You enjoy what is around you a little bit more. Everything about dating is fun...okay...well maybe shove weird or awkward or anyotheradjective...but always a time of learning and discovering. Discovering more about yourself. Learning more about someone. Discovering what is enjoyable. What works, what doesn't work, what should work. Learning what you both enjoy and what you need to work on about yourself. Discovering ways to serve or encourage or just to have fun. I never want to stop discovering more because it is there you grow.
Alright...so maybe this post is just infatuation :-)
