Writer's Block

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So you may feel I’ve neglected this bloggity. I haven’t. I visit it every week. Just recently, I’ve been having issues. I come…type…backspace…type type….backspace backspace…type type type type type….abandon draft. I’ve thought about leaving more music up here that I enjoy or like the lyrics of…but then I don’t want you to truly judge me about them – I know I’m everywhere on the dart board with them so just accept it. Yes, I like “Crush” by American Idol David Archuleta. No, I do not like his Stage Dad. No, I don’t know any of his other songs. Yes, I do love Jonsi. Yes they are weird and eclectic and some things are sung in Icelandic and I have no idea what he is signing…but I might be weird and eclectic in my own way and am okay with not knowing every meaning of the song. I’m sure you already know that, though. I’ve even thought about revamping this blog to be about baking and cooking…because I secretly dream that I could own my own bakery/lunch-in and do that for a living. But my resources are limited…I’m not too optimistic about it. It is a dream…and I will dream about it for a while, but I must admit that it can only be a fun little hobby for now….and if you happen to ask me for some dessert for a shower or something like that I would be willing. I’ve also dreamed about photography, but I’m still young and growing in my skills. I have been paid for some work, but mostly it is just for free to get some subjects to photograph. Great marketing strategy, I know. Free…I’ll do it for free, but I really would rather not. But I’m hospitable and like cooking for people, so more than not, you’ll get home made goodness from me for free. There are many things I think about and wish I could figure out how to write it all. I could talk to you about my ventures through the education world…except I’m on the side where I was told in college that there would be a dire need for teachers when I graduated. Well, I’m almost 3 year out and still no job – only budget cuts and young minds being affected with every decision whether good or bad. I could talk to you about this Bootcamp class that currently has my back and shoulder muscles screaming at me, yet the battle I had with ThinMints last night might make those muscles turn into a consistency like peanut butter. I took a little day trip to Mizzou, which was one of the best mini-day trips I’ve had in a long time. I stepped in a puddle…the only puddle I saw that day (or didn’t see – clearly). I could give you my little rating of the movies that I have recently seen and how I had to close my eyes at 127 hrs. when James Franco cuts through his nerve. Ugh…my stomach still drops just thinking about it. Not sure if my opinion is valid though considering I end up falling asleep to most movies I watch if it is after 7 and I’ve worked all day or I sit down and finally realize how tired I am. I could even write about this lovely, fantastic, life that I have. Tell you about a boy who caught me blindsided and makes me float in the air like a balloon. About the kickball league and sporty things I’ve been doing….and if you’re still reading…I’m impressed. Maybe you are truly interested in my life…or maybe you’re just a creeper. Either way, I need to write, and I need you to know that sometimes my posts will not be very interesting and other times they will…but I’m going to try to take a little leap and get a little more real with you. I’m a girl who cares what other people think and for once, I think I may be ready to be a little more open and not feel like I’m trying to step on egg shells through this blog…It is time to discover and learn and write freely…