Walking

So, I would say I've always questioned my singing abilities even though I sang in the choir in high school and was even on the worship team as a vocalist with Campus Crusade for Christ in college. I'm a big harmonizer, but still not confident to let it be known. This may have been caused by my brother who once recorded me while I had headphones on and was belting out Dixie Chicks "Cowboy Take Me Away." (God help us all!) Well, I had no idea I was being recorded and he said I was bad. So I think I've believed him ever since.

But, I love to sing. I wish I could do it for a job but that is just unrealistic - so yes, I'm that singer in the shower (when I know no one will hear me), and I'm definitely the singer in my car! If you were driving next to me, you would probably laugh at me. But I don't care...I just sing because music helps me when I don't know how to describe my life, but a song does it perfectly.

A beautiful friend gave me a "coping" CD to listen to and there is this song that just is so lovely to sing along to. I love it. It is my current song that I pump up the volume while I sing along (and yes...I will sing it even if I'm being recorded - no matter how bad it may sound):

IF YOU WANT ME TO (listen here)
by Ginny Owens

The pathway is broken
And The signs are unclear
And I don't know the reason why You brought me here
But just because You love me the way that You do
I'm gonna walk through the valley
If You want me to

Chorus:
Cause I'm not who I was
When I took my first step
And I'm clinging to the promise You're not through with me yet
so if all of these trials bring me closer to you
Then I will walk through the fire
If You want me to

It may not be the way I would have chosen
When you lead me through a world that's not my home
But You never said it would be easy
You only said I'd never go alone

ya oh oh no

So When the whole world turns against me
And I'm all by myself
And I can't hear You answer my cries for help
I'll remember the suffering Your love put You through
And I will go through the valley If You want me to